This past week has been stressful, mainly because of family problems. If it wasn’t for school starting, I wouldn’t know what I’d do. I’m not allowed to go out and have a social life. (The wonderful perks of having an emotionally abusive father.) I don’t want to get into so much detail here, but my life at home isn’t good.
School is my escape. I am in school from 8 in the morning to 4 in the afternoon. I purposefully created my schedule to have long breaks in between so I do not have to return home right away. I do not want to dwell on these ongoing problems of mine and I just want to remind myself that I will be alright in the end. (But there’s no telling what would happen to me if the abuser throws another one of his infamous tantrums.)
I just want to remind myself that there are some things that keep me going and keep me sane. These things are certain people I care about, thoughts, dreams, and ambitions in life and they are what keep me going. I want to make it out of this mess alive.
All I can do for now is hold on, hope, pray, and try to keep myself from taking the easy way out.
I think it’s a very good thing that you have a positive outlook regardless of what’s going on. I’m sorry that you have to endure such things. Never lose hope that everything is going to be alright in the end.
I’m sorry to hear what you have been going through. I know you are strong and will get through this. Remember that there are people who care about you. I hope things will take a turn for the better.